Monday, January 25, 2010

The New Normal


When I first got Watson there was a song that made me thing of him called “To Make You Feel My Love” and I still can’t hear that song without tearing up….

To Make You Feel My Love
Written by: Bob Dylan
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When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you fell my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
And I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
There's not doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on a rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothin' like me yet

There and nothin' that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love


It’s been over three weeks since Watson died and I’m trying to adjust to the new normal. I miss the way he would follow me around the house through the day and the way his tail would thump when he saw me. I miss his smile and his gentle spirit. He was such a special dog to me and he taught me some very real lessons about life and love. I think the most important lesson he taught me was the power love can have to transform, taking a skinny, fearful pup and turning him into a round, food loving, and devoted friend.

On a larger scale Watson showed me what it will take to change the world. You see I met Watson when I was volunteering at the animal shelter. I helped raise money for rescue organizations, I donated time to help socialize the animals to increase their chances of getting adopted, and I tried to do some good, but in truth I don’t know that I made that much of difference, but to Watson, the dog I adopted, the dog I took ownership of I made all the difference in the world. In doing so I learned that to make the biggest impact and truly make a difference you have to take ownership of that which you wish to change not just take something on as a “rental”. For these lesson and the years of love and joy he brought me I am very grateful to Watson my little Wo-bear.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Wo-Bear


Yesterday I lost my sweet “wo-bear” After months of battling lymphoma Watson’s rear legs went out on him and left him in pain. We tried increasing his medication and waiting to see if it would improve but with the lymph nodes increasing growth and his failure to return to good functioning after his last round of CCNU we made the painful decision to let Watson go. His passing has left me with a large void in my heart and I will miss his sweet spirit. I am grateful for the good months I was able to have with him thanks to the medications and efforts of the doctors and staff at the Hope Center, unexpected assistance from my brother in law, and the love and support from my husband.